Panic Disorder

first_imgSome health issues cannot be seen, they are the silent sufferings that are felt with the heart and battled with the mind. It could be a stranger, it could be a friend, it could be you. It is me. Last Wednesday, October 10, was World Mental Health Day and in acknowledgement of that day, I am breaking a very personal story to my readers, in hopes it gives strength to others. I suffer from panic disorder.Panic attacks are classified as a mental health disorder. They are not anxiety attacks, which are short lived and onset by a particular stressor. Panic attacks are unprovoked, unpredictable, and can even occur when waking up. Anxiety Disorder is the most common mental health issue in America, affecting 40 million adults (18.1 percent), in that number six million (2.7 percent) have panic disorder (PD). Women, unfortunately, are twice as likely to be affected than men.This is my story.“I am present, I am here, this is real.” This is the mantra I’ve repeated to myself more times than I’d like to admit over the course of my life. I’ve been hiding in the shadows, but now’s the time to step out of the darkness and shine light on the real issue. I struggle with panic attacks nearly every single day. Inhale, exhale. Life’s most basic function has become my biggest burden. Many mornings I wake up afraid to take my next breath, each gasp of air becoming a cognitive chore.When I was seven years old, my mother took me to St. Lucia for our first mother-daughter trip and scheduled my first (and only) scuba diving lesson. Unfamiliar with the breathing techniques while using the air tanks, I panicked. I became faint and fearful I wouldn’t get enough air. As memories fade and blend together, this single moment became an irreversible turning-point in my life. I developed anxiety associated with getting enough oxygen. My life was never the same.Slumber parties, a young girl’s favorite pastime filled with friends, were a dreaded invite. I distinctly remember calling my mother several times from my peers’ houses at odd hours of the night to pick me up. “It’s happening. I’m scared. Can you come get me?” It socially isolated me, “the girl who couldn’t spend the night without her mommy.” I was ashamed.As the months rolled on, so did my emotional triggers. I feared the onset of another attack, thus developing into the classification of panic disorder. Time off from school frightened me, vacation time meant more hours of the day where my mind would wander. I couldn’t be alone with my own thoughts; I needed a distraction. It was all happening so fast. Eventually, any place related to darkness became a call for distress. Then, the worst happened. In a plateau of events, I feared the moment the sun went down, and winter was a chilling reminder that the days were shortened. The darker the hour, the less “alive” the world felt. It became a cycle of isolation.Coming from a family where medication wasn’t the answer, I never sought medical help. This was a mental issue and therefore could be overcome naturally. So, up until I was 17, I had my rituals. Everywhere I went I would map out the nearest hospital and keep relatives’ phone numbers on hand in the event of a full-blown attack. These things provided me comfort, as every moment alive became an opportunity for paralyzing fear to strike. In time, each time, the attacks did dissipate and I never actually had to call an ambulance (though I came close several times). Meanwhile, I continued to travel with family, enjoyed nights out with friends, boyfriends, scholarly awards, and other life milestones. From the outside, I was completely normal. On the inside, I was in a near-constant state of panic, afraid of my own shadow.Upon a life-changing travel opportunity with an educational group, People To People, in 2006, I faced my fear and came back panic free. For over a decade, the attacks dissipated. Then, one cold night in December 2017, I awoke unable to breathe, dizzy, and in a sweat. The symptoms persisted and two weeks later I visited a doctor for the first time regarding my symptoms, to confirm what I was experiencing. I knew it all too well and was in disbelief at its return. To help, she gave me a small dose of Xanax to alleviate the pressure, to remind my body what it was like to be calm. It helped for two days, and a rare occasion since. But I still have most of those pills, on standby in case of a real emergency.Over time, the occurrence has become infrequent but the symptoms are terrifying. Like falling into a black hole, where the gravity continues to pull me in. I’m disconnected, disillusioned from all things I’ve known. I’m no longer real, life feels like another dimension I cannot touch. My chest continues to tighten, unable to get a full breath in. The hairs on my arms begin to stand. I feel faint. I question if I’m dying, so I place my palm in front of my lips to check if air is coming out. It is. Stand up, walk around, take a drive, call someone, anything to remind myself that I am connected to what’s around me. Every moment in it has become an irrational moment of fear.I am not a victim. My attacks do not define my life, they merely become moments of an additional breath. I’ve decided to share my story now in acknowledgement of the severity of this illness, gripping those in its path. It is an illness masked in smiles and silence. If you suffer, know you are not alone and you, too, will continue to find your strength.nicole@indyeastend.com@NikkiOnTheDaily Sharelast_img read more

James Blunt to release new album Once Upon a Mind in October

first_imgJames Blunt has announced the release of his new album Once Upon a Mind, which will arrive via Atlantic Records on 25th October 2019.The first single from the album is Cold, which is available to stream and download now. Watch the lyric video for the track below:For Once Upon a Mind Blunt is returning to basics following the more electronica feel of his last album The Afterlove, which came out in 2017. Blunt has worked with Steve Robson, Jimmy Hogarth and TMS on the new record.“I think this is the most honest album I have ever made.” Blunt says. “Back To Bedlam was similar in that I had been writing those songs for a while about my life experiences at that time, and they came together on my debut. And every song on this album represents something that I’m currently going through or have recently experienced. It’s a very personal record, and I’m proud I can share it.”A UK tour for early 2020 will be announced shortly and we’ll bring you the details as soon as we have them.Credit: Atlantic RecordsThe track listing for Once Upon a Mind is:1. The Truth2. Cold3. Champions4. Monsters5. Youngster6. 5 Miles7. How It Feels To Be Alive8. I Told You9. Halfway10. Stop The Clock11. The GreatestPre-order a signed copy from Amazon.Blunt broke through in 2004 with his huge-selling debut album Back to Bedlam. He has sold over 23 million albums to date.last_img read more

‘We’re relishing the challenge’ – Oxtoby

first_img These are the games you want to be a part of as a player, you want to test yourself against the best in the league and the girls will have to be confident that they can go out there and get a result. Tanya Oxtoby City Women’s Manager has urged her players to play without pressure when they face the Manchester City – who currently sit second in the Women’s Super League – at the SGS College Stoke Gifford Stadium on Sunday.Here’s what Oxtoby had to say ahead of the game:“We’ve had a great start to the season, one that’s exceeded expectation but that’s been down to the hard work that everyone had been putting in on and off the field at the club.“It’s been good for the squad to have a break and come back to the second half of the season rested and recharged ahead of what will be a tough game against Manchester City. “These are the games you want to be a part of as a player, you want to test yourself against the best in the league and the girls will have to be confident in themselves that they can go out there and get a result. “Game by game we have been getting better, learning more about ourselves and improving with, and without the ball which should hopefully translate into more results.  “Game by game we have been getting better, learning more about ourselves and improving with, and without the ball which should hopefully translate into more results. “We’re looking for an all-round performance this weekend, we want to make sure that we are solid defensively but when we do have the ball we want to use it and test Man City.“There isn’t as much pressure on us as there is for them, we have picked up result against them previously so the group know they have the ability to compete with them, now it’s just about going out on to the pitch and playing the way we know we can.”Tickets for Bristol City Women’s Women’s Super League fixture against Manchester City are available on the gate at the SGS College Stoke Gifford Stadium from 1:30pm on Sunday.last_img read more

Benton knocks off defending state champs

first_imgOne of the marks of a great football team is the ability to handle adversity on the road in the playoffs.The Benton Tigers did just that against the defending state champion East Jefferson Warriors in the second round of the Class 4A playoffs Friday in Metairie.Leading 24-13 with about six minutes left to play and about to put the game away, the Tigers fumbled inside the East Jefferson 5-yard line. The Warriors recovered and returned the ball to the Benton 3.Two plays later, East Jefferson (7-5) scored. Benton stopped the two-point conversion, but all of a sudden it was 24-19 with 5:49 left in the game.So how did the Tigers react? They drove the ball straight down the field, converting a couple of third downs along the way, and scored with 50 seconds left. Brayden Hutchinson got the TD on a 3-yard run and Jordan White kicked the PAT for a 31-19 victory.Benton (10-2), the No. 4 seed, will host No. 5 Warren Easton (10-2) in the quarterfinals Friday. Warren Easton defeated Peabody 57-20 in its semifinal game.Benton is in the quarterfinals for the first time since 2009.“It’s big for our program,” said second-year head coach Reynolds Moore. “It’s something that I think people from Benton have expected of this program. I think it’s something they are right to expect. Certainly we’ve been blessed and had some breaks, maybe, but not a ton of breaks. The ones we’ve had I feel like we earned those and our guys have worked hard to get them.”Moore wasn’t surprised by how his team reacted after the Warriors’ fumble return. “Our team has a team-first concept and they have an attitude of doing whatever it takes, and I mean that, whatever it takes,” Moore said. He credited tight end Keon Coleman with chasing down the East Jefferson player on the fumble return.“He made them run two plays to score, made them run time off the clock,” Moore said. “That set the tone. It said, ‘You know, it doesn’t matter what kind of mistakes we make we’re all in this together,’ and that kind of team attitude kind of showed up when we got back on offense.”Benton dominated the game statistically. According to stats kept by The Times-Picayune, the Tigers had 20 first downs to the Warriors 10. Benton had 317 total yards to 197 for East Jefferson.“I really think we wore them down, pushed tempo hard all night,” Moore said. “We were snapping the ball within five seconds. That was kind of our plan coming in, push tempo, get a play in and go. We did that early. You could see them early really wearing down. It kind of gave our guys some confidence and made them a little bit stronger. They were just sucking wind. We just kept pounding it at ’em.” The Warriors, primarily a running team, had 192 yards on the ground, but only 16 in the second half. They only attempted four passes, completing two for five yards.Benton rushed for 179 yards and passed for 138. Freshman quarterback Garrett Hable completed 15 of 25 passes with no interceptions and also rushed for 34 yards. Benton’s lone turnover was the late fumble.“I think this is probably the best game we’ve played all year,” Moore said. “We’ve put together some complete efforts, but with the exception of the fumble it’s the best we played overall as a team even with the missed PATs. The offense moved the football very. very well all night. The defense got a lot of stops and made a lot of tackles for loss and made it really tough on ’em.”To advance in the playoffs, it also takes some breaks and great individual efforts. Benton got a few of those and more importantly took advantage of them. The Tigers’ first TD, a 15-yard pass from Hable to TJ Anderson, came after Benton recovered a muffed punt.After the Warriors took a 7-6 lead, Chauncey Taylor scored on a 3-yard run to put Benton back on top 12-6. East Jefferson answered and led 13-12 at the half.On the first play of the second half, the Warriors had a touchdown called back because of holding. The Tigers then recovered a fumble and drove for a touchdown, a 17-yard pass from Hable to Tyler Stephens.Back in punt formation on fourth down, White kept Benton’s next touchdown drive alive with a run for a first down. Taylor got the score on a 1-yard run.Moore said senior leadership has been a major key to the Tigers’ success this season.“Our seniors have really led the way the whole time, and that’s big for them, taking the lumps they did as sophomores and coming back and playing now,” Moore said. “I think that’s a lot of what you can point to to our success this year.”The Tigers are 6-0 on the road this year, but the trip to Metairie is the first time they have had to leave the area for a game. “One of the things we told our guys was to soak it up and enjoy this,” Moore said “You don’t know when you’ll do this again. Enjoy it make the most of it, but don’t let it overwhelm you. Just appreciate it. And our guys did that. But when it was time to play it was time to play.”Moore also credited the large contingent of Benton fans who made the trip. “In the fourth quarter when we started mashing on ’em and getting it going and the defense playing well it just got louder and louder,” he said. “Our band made the trip. It was just a phenomenal atmosphere just being on the road.”StanChart by CNBC CatalystBlockchain Is Changing the Game for Trade Financing. 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The cast of ‘Beauty and the Beast’ dishes on the upcoming remake

first_img2016 – Disney(LOS ANGELES) — The cast of the upcoming live-action Beauty and the Beast praised the remake of the classic animated fairy tale as “feminist” in an interview with ABC News’ Juju Chang that aired in part today on Good Morning America.“I can’t believe I’m getting to live out my, one of my childhood fantasies,” Emma Watson said of playing the role of Belle, adding that she, “felt pressure to live up to” the character on screen.Emma Thompson, who brings to life the beloved character of Mrs. Potts, also called Belle “a good feminist,” adding, “Beauty and the Beast is one of the only fairy tales with a really decent heroine who gets to do things. Agreeing, Audra McDonald, who plays the role of Madame Garderobe, added that Belle is, “the one who rescues everybody.”Luke Evans, who plays Gaston, joked that the heroine could not save his character. “He’s a villain,” Evans said of Gaston, whom he called a “buffoon…I couldn’t go far enough,” Evans said of playing the famously self-involved character. “There’s a theatricality about Gaston. He is ridiculous.”Stanley Tucci, who plays Maestro Cadenza, said that he refused to sing for the remake. “I don’t sing, and I don’t sing in the movie,” Tucci said. “Everyone benefits … and I get to keep my career.”Josh Gad, who plays LeFou, however, is an acclaimed musical theater veteran. “Singing is just an extension of a feeling,” the Frozen alum said. “It’s what you can’t express otherwise.”Watson said that the upcoming film “contains so many important and special messages…But I think its strength is in its, like, unapologetic romance. And it’s so hopeful.The live-action musical opens in theaters nationwide on March 17, 2017.ABC News is owned by The Walt Disney Company.Copyright © 2017, ABC Radio. All rights reserved.Powered by WPeMatico Relatedlast_img read more

Racing well on track

first_imgA NEW era is dawning for Pakenham racing. The stunning new facility at Tynong is taking shape, with the first…[To read the rest of this story Subscribe or Login to the Gazette Access Pass] Thanks for reading the Pakenham Berwick Gazette. Subscribe or Login to read the rest of this content with the Gazette Digital Access Pass subscription.last_img

Galway v Mayo (Stand Tickets – SOLD OUT)

first_imgStand Tickets are now sold out. All supporters travelling to the game are encouraged to purchase their tickets in advance, Tickets on sale through the Supervalu and Centra outlets. Tickets will also be on sale outside the stadium from 5pm when the gates open.print WhatsApp Facebook Twitter Email A place in the Connacht Football Championship final is up for grabs this evening. Galway take on old rivals Mayo at McHale Park at 7pm with LIVE Commentary this evening from Ollie Turner & Frank Morris.last_img read more